5 more papers ta handle.. dah week seems ta bee soo slow. i think i gonna screw up mah midyr. realliee. i dun feel like studying bud i dun wanna get a bullshit results. i hate being contradicting and ironical. jus couldnt help it. i hef been irresponsible this yr. everything i done is nt trueli frm mah heart. i neo i'll hef dah important exams ta handle later and tts whyie i heck fer midyr. wadeva it is, its still a exam. im nt even worried abt it and still kan slack as usual. im fear that everything will bee too late till then. i think is time ta seek fer help. bud i duneo where ta start and wad ta ask. how pathetic? i start asking mahself ward do i want in life and ward will i be in de future? ward will i becum if i continue ta slack like this? wad hef i told mahself in de beginning? i couldnt imagine.. i dun even hef dah time ta think throu b4 i close mah eyes.


how i wish i could end everything now. ders a list of thangs i want ta do aft mah exams. i wanna go prawning. i wanna tann everydae. i wanna climb. i wanna shopp every wkend. i wanna wakeboard. i wanna travel. i wanna partee. i wanna pig out wit mah girlfrens every dae.i miss all dah posh dinnings! i miss em!
if onli..i will go tioman right now and stay in laguna beach forever.
o'wells i shall stop dreaming and face dah fact. im leaving in a competitive and busy country.


budd i think i will work even harder once after midyr. no time ta waste and i'll learn ta stop wadeva is borthering mee frm concentrating.