i thought i could


maybe i shant


perhaps is better if i dont


many times i thought if its mine it will be
i lost it not only once but twice
i thought it will never come back to me
i panicked
but this time round i was calm
i told myself this
if the olds dont go, the news will never come.
but i didnt give up finding
i thought i will be the happiest woman on earth
if i could find it
is like between a gucci heels & my watch
if i would have to choose one
i will most probably choose my watch
and when i found it
i wasnt as excited as what i expect myself to be
i was like 'ok i found it, dats cool'


isnt this scene so familiar?
is not just finding yur missing item
is also about losing someone once
if that someone is gonna come back someday
the special affection you thought will be the same
and maybe even better
but ultimately everything turned diluted
you didnt expect it to happen
but it certainly has


many times i got so tempted to
but i just suck at opening my mouth
sometimes i just got so confused with myself
i am not certain with what i want
i just want the matter to rest
and oh pls let be move on happily


ohbessie ohbessie ohbessie