why does it have to rain on me

totally

absulutely

thoroughly

utterly

fucking

disappointed

devastated

despair

stranded

and really really felt fucking hopeless

i am so confused with what i want till i am lost with my goal

wheres your spirit in fighting hard with want you want?

wheres your drive?

wheres your self confidence?

all these are hidden already

all these would never be out if nothing is gonna change to the better

i dont feel any sense of belonging to the world

i felt like an stray hogs being outcasted by the community

and

fix you by coldplay totally filled up the empty spaces of my inner thoughts.

good one itunes really play the right song at the right time huh?

maybe i only can blame myself for ending up in such a pathetic state

well...

if you never try you will never know