this is the last time

today was pretty crazy for me

my emotions has been really drastic these few days

i can get so desperate and get so over it in another minute

sometimes i even wonder am i suffering from some minor depression?

ohmy

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i think its getting to a point where i can see what's the world like outside

its so chaotic and complicated

example, my youth revolves around sex cigarettes and alcohol

like hello whats the difference between you and a whore?

worst still you are not freaking paid

i totally have no freaking idea whats the pleasure behind it

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well..certain things when you had enough you better leave

men come and go in your life, so does women

anyway, thought it over

i see no point drowning my sorrows which i dont quite know whats the core problem behind it

thinking i finally saw the true colour of it, its gonna be just a understatment

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i need to think of some ways to content and satisfy myself

i cant be always stuck there and see myself not moving on

alright that is it! i had enough and goodbye