happily angry

for some reasons i chose to believe in my intuition
thou it was only just a dream that only last a couple of seconds
but it seems so real
once i am awake
i felt so lost


my mood is obviously BAD today
first i woke up damn early like 730 to get ready for breakfast with jessline
then head to work
and damnit i am soo lacking of sleep in shop
and needless to say
i had tons of scoldings saying i closed my eyes to search for things
right
so making my day


and fucking ccb i had 2 HUGE pimples
one on my cheeck and one on my chin!
so big i tell you!
and is being annoying for being there.
sigh


after work me and jess walked to the train station
wha biang i tell you the fucking rain drops KEPT dropping on me!
is like damn weird cus it doesnt drops on jessline (not even a single drop) and kept dropping on me!
like WHY? WHY THE HELL IS GOD DOING THIS TO ME?
when everything is going wrong?
and i had to bare all these stupid nonsences!
life is unfair!
now i FINALLY felt the impact of this phrase
goddamnit!


and cheebye i dont know how can the blardee gay porn calls me a GENTLEMAN??????
i have been trying to be the ultra feminine bessie
and apparently not doing very well
okay thats not the point
but still no way can you call me a gentleman you gayporn!
feeling so stupid to be angry over with this issue that happened like 2mths ago?
whatever lar
i just wanna be angry!
angry for once and for all
and throw all the angst away!


back to the intuition thing,
memories can only be memories
so it can also mean intuition is intuition
despite its strong intuition or a vague one
its STILL intuition and not a fact!
so stop scaring your balls off will me?
but
i still cant get off the mentality that
men are temperamental shameless bastards!
they can get so into you at this period and superb sick of you at that period
and because of this they love sweet talking
they can drop you a subtle hint and make you feel important
at the end of it all
its still the mind game
you still have to guess and make guesses of how the other party is thinking
i am so tired of all these
i cant seem to understand men


i am thinking of nonsences again
my eye lids are getting heavy already
and i realised i am typing too much there
so goodnight to who ever borthers to read this crap


seee what had lack of sleep did to me?
evil evil...