i am defeated totally

i am doing the most and the best i could do
already stretched to the limit where i never thought i would do
so i question myself yet again


bes do you think this is the best for you?


my answer is: i thought it was, but reality doesn't seem to be corresponding with my will


so what would you do when you are in my situation?
break it or make it?


turn a cold shoulder, the sudden shut off of conversations
those arent the worst
what really pierced my heart
is do you always treat your friends like that?
if you do, i am sure you are FUBB!


a big fat FUBB!
a beyond description fubb
"fubb" taught by amanda and amanda got taught by amanda's mom


thats it is bes


i have to bear this in mind
always bear this in mind
remove the remained sentiment
match the other half with something that's meant for you at the appropriate time


i had enough
i will call it a night for me