better off.....

certain things are just better off not know than known

or rather better off not investigate and leave it alone

but

i couldnt help it

i admit my curiousity sometimes would changed into concern

or maybe overly concern? or maybe its non of my business and i still persist in finding my way out?

and so what it satisfies my curiousity?

bottom line : it sucks to know the truth.. noo not the truth yet

perhaps you dont know what exactly it means but your imagination cant help but to run wild- that really sucks big time

******

you know what really sucks?

to spend the whole of next sememster without the 3 "angels"

they are sweeeeet in a bitchy way

beeyoootiful in a fugly way

and hell outta fun! i mean FUN really!

perhaps intelluctual as well?

except the barbaric part...i mean it

sigh if i were to go on...i will probably used up 3 years's worth of words to complete my inner feelings towards this seperation issue. i dont know since when i became so sterotype and frigtened up with parting. usually i embrace changes and i love strangers ok maybe not love but at least not afraid of them.

but

now it became very intimidating

i am not so sure if i am able to work as well as with other people

or not so sure if i can survive through the 6 months peacefully

i know thats parts and parcel of life but god i am not metally prepared at all i dont wanna step out of my comfort zone i plead!

i love ya'll truely deeply madly

xoxo

captain cactus