room for decision: choices

theres always something worth living for

and to be thankful for.

how many times have i struggled to breathe and wanting to scream my lungs out?

i always considered myself as a rather optimistic and positive person because i don't tear easily.

i smile more than i frown, i laugh more than i cry, i joke more than i say awful emo crap.

it has been a good 4 months, i always thought i grew up and could use a different approach to handle this issue that has been bugging me.

i guess no

how can i be so silly to be blinded by all these? or was it i am just nonchalant?

or was it when i had hopes and believe for something that i am sure is the best for me, i just refuse to let it slide off my chest? too many doubts in my thought that i rather not persist looking into.

i wanted to treat it lightly, instead it doubled the impact

it pained me too much to even could bring me back onto track.

dear if you hear me, could you just do me a favour?

i don't think my mind could take this any longer

your shadow living in my heart is been here way too long

something that doesn't belong to me shouldn't be here at all.

please let the shadow turn grey and disperse into thin air

cause all i want is not a shadow

i wanna feel flesh, reality and genuineness

steadfastly and refuse to let anything that steal your joy

choose to be happy

and you will be