3rd June


I've just ended my really short term break. that felt so long.
nah not just long, long and really meaningful.


Can't believe that i just lost 2 of my utmost important friends this month.
they left me-
not forever but just meantime
" Is better no leave than to be left behind."


This morning, i was just standing outside the glass doors of the departure area waving goodbyes to my dearest best friend. Seeing her pulling her luggage and glamorously walk down the path to her flight. And when the moment i stopped seeing her i know i gonna be left alone. I even looked back, and i don't see any more familiar faces. Everything felt so real like a big part of me wanting to pull her back. What pain me most is when the 2 love birds had their last kiss goodbye. It killed me utterly. It is worst than any Korean sappy dramas.


Our last hug never felt so tight and warm. I could sense that she wants to stay badly but she had to go. I want her to stay even more badly and so does everybody else. The tears i see in everybody faces pierce me through so deeply. And brett holding back his tears but still could see the redness in his eyes from all the dried tears.


I know this is gonna be hard, nobody likes to be left behind. Maybe when we turned older, we have our own lives to lead. Leaving could be a biggest difficulty that we need to overcome. Cheer up buddies out there. And chin up bess.


My beloved friend,

I hope everything goes fine with you there. We were so alike, i know you will feel the same way as i do. And you know you can call me whenever you want and i am sure to be there for you anytime.
I will love you till the end of time and look forward to your return.

Yours truly
Bessie









A strangled smile fell from your face
It kills me that I hurt you this way
The worst part is that I didn't even know
Now there's a million reasons for you to go
But if you can find a reason to stay

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
Believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes

She said "If we're gonna make this work
You gotta let me inside even though it hurts
Don't hide the broken parts that I need to see"
She said "Like it or not it's the way it's gotta be
You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me"

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
And give me a break
I'll keep us together, I know you deserve much better

But remember the time I told you the way that I felt
That I'd be lost without you and never find myself
Let's hold onto each other above everything else
Start over, start over

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
and believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes





Amanda, regardless, you will still be on my mind whenever it comes to crazy parties and girls night out. I hope you know this is what you really want to do and the girlies will be by your side at all cost. I will remember you like how you will remember me dear. One girl down and you know we will gonna miss you like crazy bees so please call us up often and don't fall sick so much cause our heart will ache. I miss you muchos
xoxo