deception is brutal

I've just watched the movie closer by Jude law and Natalie Portman today.
the plot and soundtrack were beautiful!
in short the whole movie its about the art of lying.
And i love every part of jude law! ok this contains a certain degree of biasness i must admit but really it is a wonderful movie!



I realised something, i am always blogging when i am feeling not so good about the day. Maybe is a way for me to untangled the mix feelings by words?




Earlier i chanced upon this beautiful poem.


Fate allowed our paths to cross
Blue meeting blue, time stopping
The emptiness filled, I no longer felt lost
You smiled at me, my barriers dropping

Before long, there was love in my heart
And I wasn't afraid to tell you
Though that glimmer of love didn't get us far
I kept thinking, someday, we'd start anew

Our friendship continued to blossom and grow
And soon it was time for you to leave
Our goodbye was solemn, simple, voices low
But secretly inside I allowed myself to grieve

Now that you've had the time to ponder
Does distance make the heart grow fonder


Subconsciously, it seems like my everyday was filled with you around, there is just a part of you that i would write about and think about. You became my muse in my work, my distraction when i need to focus, the cause of my emotional cycle and warmth when the weather turns cold.
I''ve never want that to happen


you're taken and i am deceived
i hope you know the emotion that i have battled every time i am reminded of you
i envy you as much as i ache and loathe that the fact i am allowing myself to contact you
dear you,
don't be dan by jude law in closer
you know by doing this will only keep us forever apart
i will just keep believing that one day we'd start anew.
goodbye